Ghosts of Memory

A person who’s ever dealt with any kind of eating disorder can probably relate to this piece. The torment that captures both the physical suffering and psychological anguish, especially with “demons” symbolizing inner turmoil, can create a surreal, disturbing scene. It’s a real physical disease and the sick person often feels overtaken by something dark or beyond their control that eventually withers into slow destruction of body and soul – physically deteriorating, spiritually fading.

In my personal case, I felt I had demons living inside me. They were sweet talkers in the beginning; real charming and seductive. Then they started to get mean and controlling. Ironically, this disease started out with me thinking that I could gain control over SOMETHING in my life. I ended up being completely controlled BY them. They filled my head with thoughts of worthlessness, failure, and self-hatred.